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You were mine
- Years
- Where I am now
- While she was speaking
- In my bed
- The one
- Helpless child
- Stranger in Marseille
- Sea
- No birds flying
- Night in Venice
- Running
- If I had come before
- Fairy tales
- Seeing the mist dissolving
- Have me for free
As you're
nothing else but postwar memory
in you I find a shelter
so I'll write to sympathize with me
I know you're gonna see
all this cheap anguish
I know you're gonna read
and just think "she's weird"
Noone's got the rustproof dignity
you have, dear
see I keep on jumping from frying pan
to brazier
who will ever be what you could not be?
who will ever mean what you mean to me?
I know you didn't mean
to fuck me over, dear
For a while you were mine
and I didn't think that I could lose you
you were mine and I didn't know,
I didn't know that I would lose you
I put down my pen and get up
to make coffee
there's someone I'm waiting for
and since then there's always been
a storm in a teacup,
nothing serious indeed
it's that I never give up
when my ego bleeds
I know you didn't mean...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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The open
window showed
a crystal-clear blue tablet
and a green-spotted dry island
on the left side
I filled my lungs with warm air
then smiled up at the sky,
I often saw an eagle flying so high
I saw the years running over,
feelings following each other
things I won't believe in,
cell renewals, heart beats
and all the years running over
all the corners you can turn,
the coming of the winter
cell renewals, heart beats
The disco's atmosphere got
misty with a blue fog
and my sight like thunder-lightening
ran through it
captured by a girl who
fell down and then got up again,
she kept on laughing, kept on laughing
I saw the years...
I see we have to be,
only be: the more we are,
the less we'll fear
I saw the years...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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On a bench
in the park
till night grew deep and humid
we used to sit down with our dogs running 'round
as we talked
not very far
from there we'd hear the owl sing
and we could see
the moon like a crown on the sleepy old town
and the sparkle of distant city lights
Where I am now I hear churchbells toll
I lie on the sofa, my feet on the wall
and I wonder if I can do more
and better than this
do you think so, Louise?
Still now, when it's dark
I can feel her here, laughing at me
and saying things like "child,
you weeping clown,
wipe your eyes here on my gown
and tonight
I'll cheer up your heart"...
always loved her weird insanity and folly
her being from Mars, her violet
scars and marks
her being born that wise
Where I am now...
Do you think we can be more human
despite our bitterness and antisocial tendencies?
do you think that all of these Judases
deserve our tenderness and generous feelings,
Louise?
Where I am now...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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Summertime
had emptied out the city
roads melted in the heat
we sat down in the evening
her arms embraced her knees
'round the fountain lazy pigeons
her hair like golden silk
she said "I still can find a deep, deep meaning
in everything I see"
she said "I'm looking for no reason
no answer and no peace
don't build myself no prison
in chaos I'm at ease
and I'm sick of mysticism
baby, they pollute reality
with all those ghosts and angels and mad visions
I'll keep my dignity"
The sun was slowly going down
slowly going down
then we fell silent for a while
silent for a while
and I read no pain in her eyes
no pain in her eyes
maybe it was then I realized
then I realized
I realized
"Can you try to stop the change of season
by being fully aware?
I'd stand to face the blizzard
even if it meant my death
don't you call it nihilism
it's not that I don't give a damn
but taking things as they are means real wisdom
the world will always stay the same"
The sun was slowly going down
slowly going down
I saw her smiling for a while
smiling for a while
the light went amber in her eyes
amber in her eyes
I took no time to think twice
time to think twice
time to think twice
Summertime had emptied out the city
roads melted in the heat
caught in contrasting feelings
the rising moon would see us still
lyrics:
Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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Believe
me when I say
I have never felt this way
I think you'd better know
I could never love you more
I never can be sad
when you're sleepin' in my bed
I wake up and I stare
can you feel how much I care?
yeah
It almost makes me cry
to see you in my bed
It always takes me high
to see you in my bed
It almost makes me fly
to see you in my bed
It is the sweetest sight
to see you in my bed
in my bed...
Believe me when I say
this is not a game I play
don't be so insecure
'cause my sentiment is pure
it's printed in my head
your face sleepin' in my bed
your green eyes they are shut
are you dreamin' now or what?
yeah
It almost makes...
...to see you in my bed
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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You tell
me that you've tried and failed again
"who am I to blame?
things are quite the same", that's what you say
and now I'm forced to leave you, angel fair
but something I do swear
all I get today, tomorrow I'll share
someone thought he'd be
"the one who'd set you free"
well I saw it clear, we all choose our destiny
And among all the people I'll love
all the flesh and blood
all the tears I'll shed
you'll always be the one who got the whole of me
See, you and I never will despair
we'll round off sharp pain
we'll just wet the flame over and over again
and I'll be right back when all trees are bare
will I still find you there?
will you still caress my hair that way again?
see, you alone can be the one
to set you free
you know you'd get it if you chose your liberty
And among...
And among all the new ones to come
all those who'll be gone
all the dreams I'll share
you'll always be the one who got the whole of me
yeah baby...
lyrics:
Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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You said
to them I was a liar
said you just got tired of your joker
the dusty queen in her ceremonies
all her slaves in chains
while you sip your coffee
You said I know how to recite
the evidence is all in my lyrics
and in the stains left by the rain
what remains of dreams deserted in the years
You sometimes feel like a helpless child
You sometimes feel like a helpless child
You sometimes feel like a helpless child
you sometimes feel, you sometimes feel
like a helpless child
Your friend says you got paranoid
your black hair, she says you're losing it
you're mouldering, your beauty's fading
your sister's ill
ain't it weird dying in spring?
You sometimes feel...
No use in being well advised
"go on your way, swallow your pride..."
the sun is mean, we're all lost in pain
all of our wits are vain
so let them pity you, dear
You sometimes feel...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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On a throne
with a trident in your hand
the one that I recall before my fall - it's you
all at once
I find myself sat on these steps
wondering where on earth I ended up
for you
not a look
is being kind to me,
see pushers wandering 'bout
All alone, a stranger in Marseille
brilliant sun, morning très jolie,
the wind of centuries
all alone, a stranger in Marseille
talking 'bout what you wanna hear
I didn't want to flee
I didn't want to flee
I didn't want to flee
Don't I know
that you don't really give a damn
receiving postcards and photographs, do you?
after all,
I'm so worn out that I can't stand
up on my feet and walk, perhaps I'll draw
for you
houses and the roofs,
the chimneys and the streets
my fountain pen knows how
All alone...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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Sea, something's
coming over me
I think I'll walk along this shore
where you come to meet
the dry world
Sea, you know I'm tired of living
in lands made of hard stone
where gravity
sometimes makes me fall
Sea, I know you're gonna comfort me
nothing pulls me down no more
feels exactly like before I was born, and,
Sea, I know you're gonna shelter me
won't let me roam
you'll just keep me safe and warm
I'm telling you,
Sea, come, set me free, I'm tellin' you
Sea, come, set me free
Sea, well something is oppressing me
I think that I could face your storm
much better than this
nonsense daily war
Sea, and if you do reject me
I'll challenge all of Nature's laws
and learn how to breathe
and sing ultrasonic songs
Sea, I know you're gonna comfort me...
Sea, something's coming over me
I think I'll walk along this shore
where you come to meet
the dry world
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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You push
me back,
I see blood still dripping
you sit in your polar smile
"I was in there,
forgot you were here", you say,
"forgot if it was morning or night..."
I steal a glance
at your purple stigmata
no birds flying, flying
My awareness
to your unconsciousness
My health to your illness
My youth to your grayness,
and my love
"You've got to rest,
only need some sleep dear", I say
kneel down next to you
and smile, smile
you shake your head,
"starting to deceive", you say
no birds flying, flying
My awareness...
Time stretches out,
though it won't be healing
you make me high
it's just like staying in
when your house is mouldering
and no birds flying, flying
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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Sunset
on the old canal, boats moving slowly
celebration in that town, we're crawling like ants to the hole
and I don't even know your name
and all I know is you're a friend of friends of someone else...
voices echo as we drink, waiting for our lives to collide
See the boatman does not laugh, he thinks "you young parasites"
just a blink, we're lying flat, caught in a sleepwalker's talk
and there's no point in finding truths
in all these mirrored monuments and rotten-rooted marble trees
and if every plan should fail you can rely on your hair
In this night in Venice
that lets you know yourself much better than you've ever done
I'm thinking 'bout this night in Venice
why do you turn your back on memories and on fireworks?
And I'm thankful, most of all, I have no telly
I can't stand the very thought of hollow talking property
and when your face belongs to audiences
then I shall recall the words I heard you say
do I strike you oh so weird, saying there's a price that we all pay
For a night in Venice...
All the badges they display and keep well polished
I understand you straight away and you see that I am all in rags
and if you keep on licking me and biting me
it's not because I go well with rosé
so I feel like I could win what's never been won before
In this night in Venice...
lyrics:
Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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Her poetry
it was childish, egotistic
dressed in rented robes
all worn out in the years
populated all by gothic fantasies
she filled my cup with coffee
The big white seagull landed
on the courtyard
went searchin' all around
like pigeons in a city square
in that house I never felt at ease
I would breathe that dusty,
frigid atmosphere
And then I would go back home running
down the streets of Rome
out in the tepid evening
yeah, I would run back just like the wind
fast indeed, if you could have seen me
She saw the big white seagull
smiled with malice
"look out, the old hen",
she said, "ain't it pitiful? or maybe
you are thinking that he is just like me,
considering all I could have been"...
And then...
I'd go running like the wind
keep on running fast indeed
almost flying down the streets back home
My memories are not bitter
they're realistic
all that I wanted then
was hearing her call me "her clown"
all the strength and positivity
my eighteens, my eager heart and body
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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Well I
just got her on the phone
she seemed to be ok,
you know what I heard her say
- as if she was saying "I spilled the milk",
with a little regret - : "I threw my life away"
And how could I ignore that it's over
and I don't know how and I don't
if I had come before,
but it's late, it's late, it is too late...
So now you're talking to me on the phone
it's like I could see you smile
and all the jokes you play
but now I'm like a chameleon wearing
the wrong color of skin
I need some time to adapt
And how could I...
So please now don't you pay attention if you can
to my voice and what I say if I can't be the same
I can easily swear it's the only pain I have
it's a solitary wave
in the perfect ocean of these days
And how could I...
If I had come before
I would have overthrown this fate
if I had come before
I would have run before it was too late
have you ever happened to feel
like you were living in a dream
and you just couldn't move
and you just could not scream
tell me what's left to say, my friend,
I agree with you
there is nothing I can do 'cause it's too late...
lyrics:
Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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I was walking
down dusty roads in summer
all the doors of the small town were locked
and I rang all the bells
Women in curlers
looked suspiciously through the curtains
I said aloud: "I got books for children"
I said aloud: "I got fairy tales"
And if fate brought me here I'll just live it up
and the air that I breathe, the paths that I trod
There was a time when I thought I'd leave it all behind
did I leave it all behind?...
I said: "haven't you got babies?
you'll make them happy
see the pictures and the colors
see what an easy read"
Well some said: "we need no books"
others said: "my boy reads the Bible,
knows about Judas and Jesus"
others would just let me in
And if fate brought me here...
I was walking down dusty roads in summer
all the doors of the small town were locked
and I rang all the bells
And then a little girl came toddling
saw the elves, saw the princess
saw the pictures and the colors
cried aloud: "Ma, I want it"
the woman said: "maybe next time"
yeah she said: "maybe next time,
darling, if you're good, next time,
I promise if you're good, next time"
And if fate brought me here...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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You call
me a deserter,
you call me an equivocator
you offered me a shelter
and sure I will repay the favor
if you can't understand them,
don't mean things are inexplicable
I'm nothing but a stray dog,
I'm nothing but a fortune-raper
you say that I'm rapacious,
but listen, now, we both can fit here
as long as I had patience
I spent with you my time and leisure
And I'm seeing the mist dissolving
feeling I won't be falling
and I'm hearing my breathing only
and I'm hearing, hearing
I'm nothing but a drifter,
well I know exactly where I'm going
while you spend your days a-diggin',
nobody'll find you in your burrow
of predetermination,
of skillfully forethought actions
and constant keeping out distractions
Perverted, a corruptor
with socially incorrect partners
cosmopolite adorer,
hidden beauty extrapolator,
I'll always stay a stranger,
I'll always be a mild danger
And I'm seeing...
And I'm seeing the mist dissolving
and I'm feeling, feeling...
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Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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You were
the naked truth at least in bed
I know we had a lovely time
these days we shared
so now go and be back in a century, I say
but you can't understand
Do you believe an idyll could come again,
a few days out of space and time
among gentle words and great sex?
do you really think that it could work with me?
I'd only make you sad
So you can enjoy the moment with me
have me but for a moment, you'll see
on this condition you will have me for free
oh, have me for free
oh, have me for free
You'd be a fool to want my every day
I got moods and views for which
you'd surely be unprepared
I'm not a shallow, quiet lake you can swim in
I'd only make you mad
So why not...
Solitude and loneliness:
I'm not scared, I can endure
any bitterness, bet on this,
don't need as a habit to always have
someone else; more or less,
I know I can rely on self-consciousness
no mutual weakness
So you can...
lyrics:
Erika Cecchini
© 2000 SAINT ROCK ®
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